just need to remember this moment.

i wanted to study but i came online.
its been 2hours30mins, yet i've not flip a single page of my notes.

spank me on the butt please!!
cos i feel like sleeping already.

exam is one month away, so tell me when will i start feeling the urgency?!

its been super duper maxi long...ONE MONTH i've last sat down on my study desk figuring what should i do today. i miss the zoolanders :)) went out with his family to NUS family day for a zoobilant adventure and i seriously melted under the hot sun, wetting my backpack while his sisters sweat none. whoo knows why....dont spell that 3 letters to me, please.

that was a pre-therapeutic excursion before i change my occupation. after dining at TCC amounting to hundreds of dollars, we were given 5 membership cards to apply and i skipped my occupation! no longer a student, but i will continue cheating on a $4.50 student meal. heeheehee!!! 

its been two weeks into KPMG and i'm honestly not into it yet. in one week, my dark circles manifested so obviously till i dont dare to think about it. auditing is not easy peasy okay. with work and study schedules all back to back, i can do nothing but chasing right behind the minute hand. lunching at laupatsat is amazingly less than 5minutes walk from Hong Leong and the sight of packets of tissues are frightening! just make a 360degrees turn round, and surely you'll see tables taken up by more than one packet of tissue! seriously, singaporeans ahh LOL......

AND why MARRIAGE seems to be a BIG THING when you enter the workforce. reason being, i have a 22years old NYP graduate married to a 23years old NS man. her diamond you know how big not. not exaggerating but its as big as my fingernail (though i have small and short fingers.) another one who came into KP with me, she's 25 and getting married next year! her senior post credits her with 4000 SGD a month (double of mine, which is double for her when convert to RM!) HAIYO... when will it be my turn! LOL

AND i'm already calculating when will i be financially capable to buy an APARTMENT!!! i'm seriously excited at the thought of it! excited excited! after my 3 years bond, and another 2 years hopefully i'll be 26 and with a manager post. wahahahaha.... dont you think i'm really dreaming WAY TOO FAR! hahahahahaha.... i dont care! i'm already looking at paterson residence or somewhere near to his parents. maybe across the street :))

AND i'm LOVE-SICK!!! i only get to spend ONE ENTIRE SATURDAY with him doing things we like. and that is ONCE A WEEK staying home, watching tv series from his downloaded album, cooking japanese curry rice, gyming, dinner with his family, visiting his grannies and the activities goes on and on. and that is the only day i sleep over with his sisters and learn beauty tips.. why can't there be two saturdays so that monday will become sunday and no one will have monday blues. (now, i'm abit in my own world)

AND CY made my mind spin at 9876543456789876543234567876543 times when he says i'm PRETTY!! hahahahaha and my collegues thought i'm NINETEEN years old!! and i'm too desperate for work nowadays bragging to cheok about the 27 years old guy whose too handsome to be 27, talked to me at work, googled some technical errors i faced with the new company's handbook, sat beside me the whole day and i told CY that he will immediately turn gay upon meeting the 27 yrs old. SERIOUSLY can KOW-TOW for his charm. cheok wants me to ask him from lunch like ermmmmm me shy me shy :)))

AND lastly, SEPTEMBER is SOOOOOO WELCOMING! its my BIG BIRTHDAY and its KP sponsored family day at sentosa (i signed CY up as a family member :X) and its also my first company D&D at MBS and its also my first department trip to langkawi!! all in one month!!! steady-poom-pee-pee!!!  what about two months later? NOVEMBER is the JAM! i'm applying a ONE-MONTH PAID STUDY LEAVE and CY is enlisting. DECEMBER is the BAM will be sitting for 2 papers! wahahahhaha.... how exciting how exciting :))

its such a lengthy post, sufficient to leave this blog from another one month :))
~off to meet his grannies! (and i haven study!!)

when was the last time i took the stride..

it will be a long and early day for me to reach raffles at 1030am, sign the contract with KPMG, meet up bf for my sashimi cravings and then enroll into kaplan and start school almost immediately next week, shopping for his "enhance performance" tights which we dunno where to find. i can forsee lots of signing tmr and walking in heels. i'm already dreading while writing.

anw shall just enjoy my 24 hour stay at home resting and watching xin.msn!
its so entertaining :))

My tian!!!

last day at work and this china guy asked me for my contact. HAHAHA
obviously i never give la. i also dunno him, never talk to him, no interest for him! 
like seriously .... after so long, i work two weeks lei....
THE END

there's been a debate going on out there,
in a world of light reigning darkness....many wouldn't dare to voice there stand
because there is always always a flip side to a situation
when the truth will always remain as truth, and those concerned wish to remain as a sincere liar

i got back from aussie with the news of church being investigated.
a shock yet not a shock because
only then had i seen it from another perspective
religions are becoming like business
like multi-level marketing - one to ten to hundreds
i can shoot myself saying hey, i am part of it
when the news was on channel news asia's highlights
pastor's wife living in a USD 28,000  apartment a month
just like what happened to the monk who sat on a limousine
i became sinfully judgmental 
shouldn't all religious leaders be responsible for their actions and lifestyles
that whatever they do should not waver the faiths of believers
although we may not have the luxury to spend or earn like them
i hope i'm not contributing to their income because
mine is not even sufficient to provide for my own family
i only want my contributions to heal the world

i have received so much from the church,
from the teachings and transformation
from the commitment to determination
from the blessings to manifestations
i may have left the church for months
but still, i hold on to my faith
and for the pastor whom i looked up to always

truly, i dont see that performing religious rituals makes you right with God
its individual daily lifestyle that narrates your relationship with him
if evangelist advertise their own abilities and get people to submit to them
something is wrong
in the book of Luke, tax collectors are representatives of today's world of greed
authority brings the temptation of exploitation

i really pray that wrong doings should be revealed, of how the attitudes have offended you
give us confidence in resisting temptations and teach us the freedom of contentment
we always pray for God to take control of our lives
as we submit to him, we trust that everything is made well
we are under God's law and we should fear nothing but Him only

Dear Lord God. I am saddened to think that some of my brothers and sisters around the world are suffering today because they have lived courageously and spoken the truth about Jesus. Thank You that Jesus is still the Light of the world and will never be defeated, found to be defective or compromised by evil. So I pray that You will sustain believers whose pathway is painful, that they may be both comforted and strengthened. Grant them Your joy even in their suffering. And please help me not to be afraid, when threats or other opposition try to silence my witness; knowing that You will honour those who honour You. In Jesus' Name. Amen.